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It has been a long time since I wrote in this journal, I would rather write on my blog, but looking at my last one I thought it needed a bit more uplifting one as the most recent. Just some quick updates I guess, now a double major, in 24 units this semester (that's double the minimum to be a full time student, just so you know), and I am working too. So this semester has been wearing me down, but I am still fighting, kinda. Some classes I could care less about, and just go to in order to get points, and other classes I am fighting in. I still somehow have a social life, when I'm not sick. I go out with friends, to the bars, watch movies, e

I know I may be sounding emo, but I feel abandoned. Its strange to feel like I am all alone yet I have family and a job to keep me company. Maybe working is too much for me right now and I need to ask my manger to cut back my hours, I don't know. My mom said that I look angry and sad at the same time, and something about spending more time with her, but I know it is useless. I am not the same person anymore. I just feel angry all the time, yet I am crying as I write this. I don't even remember the last time I felt 100% happy. I know I have, I just need to find out how to get back there, to rewind while still going forward with my life. I just

Well, to start out, I just sat in class today, and just stared off into space. After class I went to my room (after lunch, of course) and figured out exactly which classes I want to take and at what times. I have an awsome plan for next year. MWF- 2 class, starts at 10 goes to 12. TuTh- 4 classes starts at 11 goes to 5. Straight through. Not bad. But my favorite part is that on Friday's I will be done at 12, and these past 2 semesters I have had a 3pm class on MWF, but it was so horrible on Friday's.... I am just glad that it worked out...